You shouldn't isolate yourself from others...thts not the solution to anything...
if you wer my cousin i'd think, 'hey we used to hang out so much, have fun and now he's not cared bout whether im dead or alive..'
You gotta understand tht everyone's gonna die one day... u me everyone...Accept the fact and live...i know its difficult...and im really sorry for all tht u've faced...hell ive only been thru one death and it feels like d end of d world...
And i think tht d gr8est respect you can give sum1 is to remember dem 4ever...evn wen they're no more...
I'm having trouble understnding how you cnt get close 2 any person aftr dat 5th grade frnd..
I know death is the worst thing tht anyone wud wnt 4 sum1 they love..but it is inevitable...
I also know tht everyday i think of grandad once and try to wish him bk..and my eyes are clouding wid tears as i write this...but no matter...i never wished i had stayed away frm him to prevent hurt now...i only wish tht somehow i cudve spent more tym wid him... and tried to relish every moment of his stay on earth...
All im trying to say is dont do something that u'll regret l8r...
Enjoy love and frndship while its with you...dont let it lose you...
On a more serious note...im not enforcing my views on you...just stating what i feel....
Hello there teju,
yea no worries, didn't see any aggression in your reply
well the cousins I don't have that much over in Saudi, the two particular ones that I feel close to are in Sudan, and thats the only time we spend together, so yea, thats something inevitable, and i'm sure they won't be "blaming" me for being in different continents; no sure if I made it clear or not, but what I was tryna say is that these two are the only ones that I feel like I will suffer shall anything happen to them. The cousins which live in here, well I'd rather remain isolated than live with them, they're either too extreme or just plain lame.
*And i think tht d gr8est respect you can give sum1 is to remember dem 4ever...evn wen they're no more...*
I do remember some of them sometimes, esp my friend and aunt, but it just leaves me with a sour feeling, and, honestly, I've got enough misery on hand, whether its annoying friends who don't realise it when they've gone too far or school/uni pressure or parents (which is the worst); so yea, I got enough misery on hand, I don't need to recall that I lost people whom I loved.
About the best friend thing, yea well I'm having trouble believing that too
; its kinda complicated, but ever since then, I have not found a single friend who was loyal to me, and for me, loyalty is the single most important element of establishing close friends. That, combined with too many suspicions and backstabbing, made me isolate myself from anyone. Yea, I got my "pals" but these are not people I trust, not people who would miss me when I move away nor would I miss them, they're just people I spent my time with.
So yea anyways, you said it yourself, its painful when you think back about dead people if you've loved them. I ain't sayin don't have fun with them, I'm just saying don't get attached too attached to them, and spare yourself the pain you would have been bound to endure